Saturday

So the plan I made yesterday to only drink 2 or 3 beers and not snack......

fuck me.

i ate so much because i got WAYYY too drunk. in total i drank 3 beers, 2 shots of strawberry creme tequila, and 2 shots of captain. and i seriously ate like a starving african child. im ashamed and i dont even want to say how much i think i ate. but since i ate so little that day and worked out a shitload, i may have cancelled off all that food so i wouldnt've gained any weight from extra cals.

today i did good, besides for waking up at my friends to a banquet breakfast. i had to eat to not cause a scene, so i had a slice of frech toasts and a few bites of cheesy eggs. on my drive home a ate an oreo, too. so thats prbably 500 cals or so. i did SOO much cardio at the gym: 1 hr on one ellipt, then aanother hour on another machine, then 45 mins on yet another ellipt machine, 10 mins abs, 10 mins bike, and 10 mins of rowing. so about 3 hrs of cardio. then tonite I was bored and alone in the house, so I did another hour on this old elliptical/stepper machine we have in our basement. including that breakfast, i probably ate around 1200-1400 cals. BTW...im starving right now =( i want a snack so bad. my dinner was a salad and a cucumber, then i had some homeade carmel corn, which is totally my weakness. i wish i could eat more of it, but i will hold back seeing as ive eaten enough to feed a country the last few days.

tomorrow is my sis's bday. i dont know if ill make it to the gym for a full workout, but ill try to.

oh, and im taking pics tonight of myself for thinspo (maybe..) FYI- they really are me, not some googled crap.

maybe my hunger will show.

goodnight everyone. stay motavated and spread words of hope<3

Meggy