Well yesterday was my "fast."...hmmm it wasnt a complete success. So all day, I ate 4 pickles, which are super low cal, and two peices of 40 cal bread. I was fine with that! thats like less than 100 cals, so i was stoked! then one of my friends kept insisting and INSISTING we go to dinner. she texted me 'when are we eating dinner' and i was like 'idk i think im just gonna skip' and she was like 'youre not going to eat dinner at all' and i was like ugghhh god 'uhmm maybe way later tonite'. we already had plans to go to our friends dorm and start partying/drinkin at 7ish. then she texted 'like when, after we start drinking?' and i wanted to be like EAT BY YOUR FUCKING SELF AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!. we started hanging out a little before 7 and my stomach kept grumbling and i was like 'i didnt eat much today, i had no time, ill just eat later' and she kept talking about food. she is kinda chubby but her face is like, absolutely STUNNING. she is gorgeous! and it fucking seems like guys dont care that shes chubby, because they all fucking FLOCK to her. that just makes me think 'well wtf why am i trying to hard to be thin is she isnt but still gets guys?' which is a bad mindset, i know. but its true, why do i even bother?
anyways, we started all drinking at 8ish then at 9:30 or so shes like 'omggg i havent eaten anything at ALL today!!! nothing! im starving!! all i had was a bowl of cereal, a sandwhich, and a lean pocket' haha. i jsut wanted to be like AHEM. WHAT WAS THAT? NOTHING? NOT A THING? WHAT? hahaha chubby people always think a lot of food is nothing lmao. what a joke. anyways, we end up going to the campus cafeteria and she gets a sub and is all 'what are you getting?? you should probly eat SOMETHING.' so im like whatever (at this point i ws TRASHED. like really trashed.) i got a veggie wrap that is exactly "garlic herb wrap, lettice, spinach, tomatoes, mushrooms, carrots, and cucumbers with honey mustard dressing." i ended up lieing and saying 'this wrap tastes weird' and only ate the veggies and honey mustard dressing on the inside. she ate her whole huge blt sub. haha.
so we go back to the dorm party- consiting of me and her and then ten other boys- and every single guy is all over HER. not one even notices me. i felt so shitty. seriously. i hate it. im not that pretty but i dont think im ugly or anything. but shit like that just..damnnn...really brings down my self esteem. she ended up making out with one of them. and i did nothing. all night. it was jsut kind of lame.. not her fault, nothing she or me or anyone can do anything about it. but idk. today has just been shitty since all that.
at least ive managed to not eat much yesterday, and so far today has been allright.
i dont really have anything else to say...have a good day everyone..
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omg i HATE that.
its like all of the fatties think that bowls and bowls of food amount to nothing.
its horrible!
tis like they have this mindset that REQUIRES them to devour everything in sight or something haha
and she might be pretty, but maybe the guys all flock to her because shes easy.
a lot of my guy friends tell me that when theyre looking for something strictly sexual, they go to the chuggy/fat girls because they have such shitty self esteem its easy to get into their pants,
and they save the really stunning girls for when they want to put effort into something and hold an actual RELATIONSHIP with them
ill bet its just because youre a keeper and shes a hoe =]
thanks for the support through everything also! it means a lot =]
XOXO Sophia Ruins <3
wow! what was she doing to have guys all over her like that? is she like super flirty? was she wearing slutty clothing? Guys flock to shit like that. Are you the shy type? Sometimes guys like it when you are more aggressive. Despite your shitty day you did awesome with the eating!! so at least it is something to be happy about right? If I were you I wouldn't care if guys was all over her like that. Sometimes that just shows what kind of person she is and the type of person you are not. They probably were all over her cause they thought they'd have a shot at getting into her pants. You must hold yourself to a higher level and guys are intimadated by that. The fact they weren't over you shows they respect you. I would look at it as a good sign if I were you. You will catch the "right" kind of guy being the way you are. Plus guys just want to have sex nothing more and unless you want to have sex too then umm.... yea you should care less. Fuck them guys! let them have Miss chubby easy pants and you keep doing what you do best!
babe...dont worry,i think ur friend might be jealous cause u ve got better body and is trying to make u eat eat and eat...lol
i know its bad but it often happenes..
Anyway,about the guys she gets,its all because of her confidence,im sure u r way better catch than her,so bring it on girl
xxxxxx
you're super cute, don't worry about it.
like the girl above said, it's probably just that guys usually don't go for the girls who they can tell would actually be serious and good for a relationship.
guys suck, man. I mean, yeah, I like them quiiiiite a bit, but when they go for fat hoes I'm like "wtf are you thinking???"
Hun I hope you star feeling better. I had a friend who always got the guys. She was skinnier than me. A better flirt. I hated it. But the guys she got weren't that great. You probably are a real girl, interesting, more than just a pretty face, and I'm sure you are beautiful.
xoxo
i agree with sophia! don't worry too much about it maybe they're intimidated by you because you're so pretty!
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