HORRIBLE weekend!!!

UGH this has been the biggest fuck up of a weekend ive ever lived through. i seriously ate so much i cant even believe it. i was with fam the whhooole time and they were just looking at my body, i could so tell. like theyre so pleased that their little plan to make me gain weigh is working. i ended up running the half marathon (13.1 miles) yesterday, which probly burned major cals (it took me 2 hr and 5 mins of strait running). i wont even get into what i all ate, but you can use your wreched disturbing mind and think of it yourself.
the one, ONE slightly good thing was that, like i thought they would, my dad weighed me. 115. blegh! oh well he was happy. and he told the rest of my fam too, and they were all happy and like 'ooh, youre getting gthere' and i was just thinking HA yea right.
but yea i weighed myself tonite, 115. =( . i think that really is a sign. not a good one. i remember a few moonths ago, like october-ish, weighing myself on that same scale weighing 98 lbs. god i kind of miss seeing two digits. and almost 20 lbs?!?! holy fucking shit!!
uhm, yea i need to start getting in check here. im thinking 110 by mid next week.
ok. so here is my day tomorrow. im setting this in stone::::::::::::
930-get up
10-class
1130-lunch; lrg salad, a few orange slices, maybe some yogurt, and water/tea!!! no milk or coffee!
1215-homework-if roomie is in the room, go to the study roonm to avoid snacking!!
2-class
4-gym
6-dinner-same as lunch
rest of night-homework and maybe gym again

OKAY so its set. i AM determined to get to 110 for sure. possible under. whatever! just not so low my fam recognizes any weight loss ever again lol. i am okay with lying though.

i need all the help i can get! and i will try to start commenting on more blogs :)

STAY strong ladies, seriously.
do you really need that choclate?
do you really need that oatmeal?
do you really need that toast?
do you really need that drink?
what will happen is you dont have it?! NOTHING! NOTHING WILL HAPPEN! you will feel great about yourself because you are strong and determined, and do not give into an organ in your body! girls, you know youre stronger than that!! you KNOW it! now toughen up, chew some gum, drink some flavored water, go walk to the bathroom, take a shower, tweeze your eyebrows, vacuum your floor, take our your dog, paint your nails, refold all your clothes, do SOMETHING! jesus did not celebrate easter by vegging out on candy, but by reciveing his life. show him some damn respect, and THROW OUT the candy!!!

much love

*much skinny love

xx