so somehow yesterday, i have no idea whazt triggered it, but i snapped. i snapped from not really giving a shit about weight to OMG DO NOT eat that food.
and i loove it :)
i used to walk past the candy dish and havea peice or two and said whatever, but i totally stopped.
and yesterday, with a wet/sweaty tshirt, bra, shorts, and tennis shoes, i weighted about 116. so thats allright
but i had a horrible dream that my thighs were like touching, like all the way!!! ahhhhh so that really helped. thats so icky to me, so im really determined to lose now.
i just bought a pair of jeans from the store american eagle (or ae as some just call it, whatev) that are a size 2 long. theyre a little snug, so now im reallydetermined to lose just a few pounds so they fit better. theyre skinny jeans and suuuper cute, and they were only 30 bucks.
so im all smiles lately!! :D :D and today im going to see dave matthews band! yay!! i love DMB!!!
well good luck to all else out there. i know people may be stuck in ruts, and its ok. i was too for a while. i just didnt even give a shit about what i weighed. the guy i really really used to like is dating this girls who's kinda chubby, which made me think "well FUCK if he likes big girls, maybe i should just be fucking big!"
NO NO NO thats NOT the way to think. just cause one guy likes a big girl, blegh, that doesnt mean i need or am allowed to be chubby. no. i want to be thin, wait, no, SKINNY. well, i kind of am already, but i want to be SKINNY-EEERRRR :]
and i will be. now that i really am snapped. i know how to work this. ive done it before, for years actually. and now im back :] and i kinda like it :]]]
love you all xx
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yay for the little snap!
I just snapped back into the game too darl, congrats on the size 2 jeans.
Best of Luck!
Xx.
I like your attitude chica
fair play! just a question tho! why do u wnt to be thin?! is it for guys or wat? Every1 thinks I try be this way for other ppl but its about me accepting myself and the only way I can is by being thin. b4 I was like screw it Im gna just have a healthy diet and eat exercise but I gained and then totally freaked out! x
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