there isnt much to say anymore. im happy for everyone else for acheiving their goals.
at the same time im doing the exact opposite. i hate it. so much. i havent seen my family in about 2 months and they always call and ask me if im eating more and gaining weight.
it feels like everyones noticed. and i hate it. i want to be myself. i want to be thin like i was.
im like 111-112 now. and i miss that 98 and 103 and even 105.
its all on my stomach and i feel shittier than ever. fuck fuck fuck fuck.
seriousl girls, dont ever let this happen to you. where youre contantly being watched by everyone, everyones judging you and wanting you to be fat. i want to be me. but if i am me, im going to be sent to rehab. and im not doing that.
i still havent gotten my period. its been over two years. ill cry when i get it, i know it.
if you comment on this, put in a little bit about yourself and how your progress is. i havent read anyones blog since like december. id love to know :) just a few sentences of if youre good or bad, id love to know.
god i hate this so much. i almost want to cry right now :( i miss 100. i miss hearing 'youre so tiny and thin' and all that. i hate this i hate this i hate this so bad.
About Me
- Meggy
- I have weight issues. I am 5'6". HW:119 LW: 96 CW:115!!(8-17) GW:113-isshhhhh. Please help me. Been caught before, dont want to be caught again. Not getting under 110. Having trouble getting under 115.
4 comments:
I was super excited to see that you posted...I've been thinking about how you're doing...sorry it's not so well for you right now...and i know this sounds cliche, but it will get better. You will get out of treatment and start living your life again however you want to live it...maybe just transfer to a college further away from the watchful eye of your family!
as for me, im doing ok...not much of a change in weight...but trying to change that, as always.
anyways, good to hear from you!
Hugs <3. You can get back to where you were one day.
Aww I am soo glad to see that you posted something! Don't worry, as soon as you get out from under the watchful eye of your parents you can live however you want!
As for me, I'm doing OK, still trying to lose more weight got a LONG way to go before I'm satisfied though.
Hi i just started reading your blog. You sound strong and wonderful. Keep it up!
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